Saturday, December 27, 2008


6:45 am in Tahoe. just some new inklings...


Come show love for the paintin' folks at Art Murmur this Friday!
Mua (2442 Webster, Oakland)/ 01.02.09/ 7 pm.

my favorite Jessica Schmidt will be showing her lovely paintings.

I'm still always very surprised when East Bay-folk tell me they've never been to the Art Murmur. I actually never got a chance to go till September, but I can now say it is a must. It's an amazingly vibrant and fun community get together.
Think like block party with more art and vegan desserts and handcrafted things for sale and less awkward neighbors with beer koozies.

unless you're into that. In which case you might wanna come anyway, I'm sure you could find someone near the barbecue. BYOKoozie.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

for Rama

The History of One Tough Motherfucker

he came to the door one night wet thin beaten and
a white cross-eyed tailless cat
I took him in and fed him and he stayed
grew to trust me until a friend drove up the driveway
and ran him over
I took what was left to a vet who said,"not much
chance...give him these pills...his backbone
is crushed, but is was crushed before and somehow
mended, if he lives he'll never walk, look at
these x-rays, he's been shot, look here, the pellets
are still there...also, he once had a tail, somebody
cut it off..."

I took the cat back, it was a hot summer, one of the
hottest in decades, I put him on the bathroom
floor, gave him water and pills, he wouldn't eat, he
wouldn't touch the water, I dipped my finger into it
and wet his mouth and I talked to him, I didn't go any-
where, I put in a lot of bathroom time and talked to
him and gently touched him and he looked back at
me with those pale blue crossed eyes and as the days went
by he made his first move
dragging himself forward by his front legs

(the rear ones wouldn't work)
he made it to the litter box
crawled over and in,
it was like the trumpet of possible victory
blowing in that bathroom and into the city, I
related to that cat-I'd had it bad, not that
bad but bad enough

one morning he got up, stood up, fell back down and
just looked at me.

"you can make it," I said to him.

he kept trying, getting up falling down, finally
he walked a few steps, he was like a drunk, the
rear legs just didn't want to do it and he fell again, rested,
then got up.

you know the rest: now he's better than ever, cross-eyed
almost toothless, but the grace is back, and that look in
his eyes never left...

and now sometimes I'm interviewed, they want to hear about
life and literature and I get drunk and hold up my cross-eyed,
shot, runover de-tailed cat and I say,"look, look
at this!"

but they don't understand, they say something like,"you
say you've been influenced by Celine?"

"no," I hold the cat up,"by what happens, by
things like this, by this, by this!"

I shake the cat, hold him up in
the smoky and drunken light, he's relaxed he knows...

it's then that the interviews end
although I am proud sometimes when I see the pictures
later and there I am and there is the cat and we are photo-

graphed together.

he too knows it's bullshit but that somehow it all helps.


my cat Rama got this big open wound on top his head just before thanksgiving. He didnt seem to notice, he just kind of kept ambling around as usual and it reminded me of this story. I've always thought there was something wrong with him! Maybe he's on to something!